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Pandora’s reaction was just as enthusiastic as expected. He smiles, just a little bit. Despite Cook calling him GayJ all of these years, it does seem out-of-character for him to have sex with a guy. He furrows his eyebrows; he didn’t know Panda knew Rennie. “Yeah, Rennie.” JJ sighs, “Liv won’t talk to me. I don’t know if she’s still sick or she just doesn’t want to speak to me. I want to tell her what happened, but I’ve done everything I can to reach her. Rennie, he says he loves me. But he seems scared of relationships. I just want to know what we have will last. And that last person, Lucy, I think I made her mad. Damned if I know how. So it’s less of who I want to be with and more about if anyone even wants to be with me. Naomi is right, she and I hurt everyone we touch.” Maybe they’ll all just leave me. But Claud…maybe I could pursue him at the end of this madness.

She was glad that she still had the ability to make her friend smile, even if it wasn’t all that big. “Oh, he’s…nice. I met him for donuts the other day!” Pandora giggled, remembering how she was immediately fond of Rennie and was glad such a good person might be the right one for JJ. “But…about Liv…I can try talking to her, see if she will respond to me. If that would help at all…?” She wanted to help JJ and this was one of the ways she felt she could. At the mention of love, she raised her eyebrows yet again. “Wacker! Love? Wow…that is pretty serious, Jay. I hope you know what you are getting into,” Panda said with a sigh. She didn’t want to discourage him, but she knew what being in love could be like, and it wasn’t the best experience of her life. “And who is Lucy? I feel like I should know her, but I really can’t recall…anyways, what Naomi said is shit. You haven’t hurt me, and look! We are touching right now.” She grinned at him. “So don’t listen to her. Okay?” Pandora shot her friend a comforting smile and wondered what was going on in his head.

“Sure, may as well try. But do me a favor and just tell her JJ needs to talk to her. It’s my burden to tell her what I did.” Have Liv and Pandora even met before? I pray she doesn’t get overexcited. She can get like me when I’m in a moment and blurt out something unnecessary.

JJ smiles, thinking of the last time he was with Rennie. “I want it to work so damned badly. I really do love him, Panda. I just happen to also love two girls. But I think he’s special, like a big donut covered in icing and sprinkles,” he snickers at the idea, hoping Panda appreciates the visual. “I’ve been told that loving more than one person just means you have a big heart, that it’s something beautiful. Do you think that’s true?”

JJ stares at the ocean. He remembers his mother saying that people with blue eyes have deep souls. JJ wonders if his eyes look like the ocean right now. He breaks out of his trance when Pandora asks about Lucy. He chuckles, “Sorry, I keep forgetting I’m the only one who calls her by her first name. Sketch, if you happen to know her. She calls me Jones in return.” Panda’s pep talk about Naomi makes JJ feel a bit happier. He hugs her in return. “Well since you’re not going to pieces on me, I may as well hug you for being a whizzer friend.” He holds back the tears forming behind his eyes. Freds, Claud, now Pandora. Maybe I’m not alone after all.

(Source: themagicman, via whitneysnow-deactivated20120105)